Me.AcHinG.HeARt
I’m walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone
Read between the lines
What’s fucked up and everything’s alright
Check my vital signs
To know I’m still alive and I walk alone
… [Green Day] …
When the wheel of life has turned upside down, twisting and twirling you up till you vomid [like probably about now].. my head usually starts to wonder to another completely pointless issue such as.. Is smoking dangerous? [talkin bout insanity.. doh!] I personally haven’t tried to smoke.. but it did cross my mind lotz of times.. especially in times like these.. pfff.. Well anyway, hell yeah it is dangerous! But when I came to think about it over and over again.. Isn’t it just somekind of a runaway method where people tend to take when they’re fully distressed? Ok. Let’s be more specific. I just think that it’s a same self-devastating method as listening to aching mellow music after a terrible day, where you cry your heart out [and ended up in such a knocked out condition with a freakin terrible headache - as if it's been smashed with a HUGE sledge hammer] or beat yourself up till you bleed [hoping that the pain will neutralize your aching soul] Did it work? At times.. probably.. But mostly, nope..
I myself prefer to threw myself into music.. the headbanging. full of screaming ones.. or the sexy dance-licious ones where I tend to shake the f**k out of my a**, get down and dirty on the dance floor [yeah.. talkin' bout a split personality] or maybe just to C.R.Y.. In anyhows, I’m just another human being with a hollow soul.. trying to find my way back.. am just currently feeling hopeless, but it’ll pass.. soon enough..
… crossing my fingers, till that day with a brighter sun …
